Today I opened up
I went somewhere that was uncomfortable
Awkward - vulnerable - scared 
To grasp onto life by the skin of your teeth
Not sure if there are words to describe that feeling
And that's what broke me up
Preaching about living life to the fullest
Never quit and leave the haters in the dust
Blocking out the pain - fear - and doubt
But I am human 
Seeing those that fought the fight move to the after life without me-
Reminds me just how precious life is
Torn, I thought I wasn't scared of dying
But today I opened up